From Surviving to Thriving
What a massive journey this life is !!!
You’re not alone
I’m here and I want to share a little more of my journey with you, so that you can get to know me a little better and feel safe in my intentions for being here
Oh dear where to start ?!
Deep Breaths ………
I mentioned earlier that I spent 20 years having existential crises ………#slowlearner
I knew SOMETHING WAS WRONG, I knew there was MORE TO LIFE than the experience I was having, but I FELT POWERLESS to change it
To my dismay the LIFE OF MY DREAMS never dropped out of the sky into my lap and I drifted along in a sea of angst
I knew that I didn’t want to be feeling this bad, but I didn’t know how to feel better
For years I berated myself for not being better, looking better, feeling better, doing life and relationships better #notgoodenough
I had acne, was overweight, for a brief period underweight, reactive and had ROCK BOTTOM SELF ESTEEM. I cant show you photos, because I wouldn’t allow myself to be in any #selfloathing
I self-medicated my depression and anxiety with a lifestyle that involved fast food, alcohol, an eating disorder, sabotaging relationships and DAILY DOSES OF SELF-CRITICISM. My best efforts to numb the pain of, what I can in hindsight language as, a DEEP SENSE OF UNWORTHINESS and LIVING OUT OF ALIGNMENT with my souls desire
I was DISCONNECTED from myself and living an UNCONSCIOUS LIFE without purpose or direction. I was convinced that Life just happened to me and I would drift from one external event to another, allowing friendships, relationships and family dramas to determine my mood and my next move
I never sought out jobs that I enjoyed because I didn’t think I deserved them, I didn’t seek further education after high school until I was 30 because I didn’t believe I could succeed and EVER have a career that I loved
I believed deep down that I would always just get by in life #selflimitingbeliefs
I didn’t have any passions because I was DISCONNECTED from my heart. I kept people at a distance because I didn’t trust them, what I know now is that I DIDN’T TRUST MYSELF to be able to handle anything going wrong. So I kept part of my heart always closed in protection
With self-compassion I will say – I didn’t know what I didn’t know, I wasn’t equipped with the TOOLS to IMPROVE my LIFE until I took ACTION and started to seek them out
Around my mid 20’s my perception started changing, I started to eat healthier and exercise more and I toyed with the idea that I could become the CREATOR OF MY WORLD instead of being a spectator
Why hadn’t I been told this !!! Or had I and I wasn’t ready to listen?
From that turning point my healing journey started, I had a new found thirst for knowledge. I found YOGA at the age of 30 and I walked out of my first class feeling like I could do anything !!!! I had never ever felt that way before – yoga dropped me out of my busy, self critical mind and into the body I’d rejected for so many years
When I was PRESENT, MINDFUL and CONNECTED with my breath and my body there was no anxiety or fear or sadness, there was instead STRENGTH, RESILIENCE and COMPASSION
YOGA IS AN ACT OF SELF LOVE
“You’ve got a new story to write and it looks nothing like your past”
I started to REDISCOVER myself and come back to the
TRUTH OF WHO I WAS
Who I have always been, waiting for the layers of NOT FEELING GOOD ENOUGH and LACK OF SELF WORTH to be peeled away
Studying Naturopathy and Nutrition gave me MORE TOOLS to understand my body and OPTIMISE my HEALTH, then came COUNSELLING, another puzzle piece. Then came COACHING and MASSAGE
I studied what my HEART led me to in order to facilitate my own HEALING HOLISTICALLY
MIND BODY SOUL
NOW that is what I offer you
EXPERIENCE, KNOWLEDGE and SUPPORT in turning your life around, or perhaps UP-LEVELLING from an already solid foundation
REPROGRAM SELF LIMITING BELIEFS, RECONNECT WITH THE TRUTH OF WHO YOU ARE and REMEMBER and RELEARN how to LOVE and CHERISH YOURSELF as you do your children or your best friend
Finding YOGA earlier, working with a COACH or MENTOR earlier would have saved me many many years of pain
It would have helped me CONNECT with me, PEEL AWAY SELF LIMITING BELIEFS, CREATE A CLEAR VISION for my future and guide me in cultivating the sense of EMPOWERMENT that I SO needed in order to BELIEVE i COULD CREATE THE LIFE I LOVE
“You don’t need to see the whole staircase you just need to take the first step”
– Martin Luther King Jr
I would love to get to know you
- Where have you been?
- Where are you heading?
- What are you passionate about?
- What are your fears?
- What is your vision for the future ?